the night has a thousand saxaphones

I'm feeling babbly today.

* Investigation into the effects of zat'ni'ktel fire on the common Peep, by Dr. Samantha Carter. (Look, nothing with a title like that needs a detailed rec, okay?)

( Thinky Thoughts )

( Johnny Weir, Adam Lambert, and Evan Lysacek. The boys sure are pretty this year )

Firstly, have some humor awesomeness: Dave Barry's year-end roundup. Do not attempt to consume beverages while reading.

Secondly, have some fannish humor awesomeness: The new year's resolutions of Dr. Rodney McKay, and the new year's resolution of Colonel John Sheppard. Similarly, do not consume beverages. Hee!

Everybody is doing year-end fic roundups. I can't, because I wrote so much anonymous Christmas fic and I just have to talk about it. So, tomorrow.

( That said, I am a New Year's resolution ho )

You know, when I put it all in a list like that, it doesn't look like I've totally derailed my life and potential career, stranded myself in a city I hate, and wasted three years, doesn't it? That's because I didn't put "Fix the horrendous mess I've made of my life" on the list. It's all about the concrete, right?

( More life year-end stuff )

Fandom update: ( I have gotten hooked on Leverage )

Now if I can just fend off the inevitable falling for Merlin...

Yuletide is by far the awesomest part of the fannish yearly calendar. This year I wrote a main story and a last-minute Treat. (The main story, which I researched for weeks and though about for a month and worked on for days and days, has one comment as of this writing. The dashed-off treat has 12. There’s no accounting for the vagaries of the Claw, I guess. I’ve been told that staying Zen about these things is one of the secrets to being happy in fandom. I am trying.) That said, I got a wonderful present! And have found more than enough beautiful stories already in just the tidgy bit of surfing I was able to do on Christmas Day.

( First, the personal pimping )

( Before you do any other Yuletide reading... )

Recs list to come: Original list of 115 fandoms knocked down to 70! I am going to bed.

Well, I have gone back through sga_santa and left fb for everything I read before. I’ve been hopping around a lot, avoiding total AUs and anything over 10k words. Instead, I’ve been hitting everything that features Lorne, Zelenka, Ronon, or says “humor,” only foraying into McShep when the plot looks good. Not sure why- just the mood I’m in.

( SGA Recs )
I still have some long ones I want to read, but that's it for now!

I am In A Mood. Have some pictures:

Apparently, this is from a Dolce & Gabbana ad shoot. I approve of the wildly sensual, hedonistic vibe paired with the sharp suits. (NSFW)

this is a lot more straightforwardly pornographic. I will admit it's the dogtags that did me in. Stargate fandom has obviously done something to me.

this is het. I know, weird, eh? Barely PG-13, and probably I should not admit how freakishly hot I find it. There also seems to be a certain commonality with the last one...

( A meta-ish fic rec and babbling )

( Have a poem )

Hearing Richard Dean Anderson say, "yes sir" really turns me on. Most men, really, but his is especially good.

As far as I can tell, Macgyver as spent the last three years getting impulsively kissed by a new beautiful woman every week. Every two weeks at the outside. And yet he still manages to look sweetly surprised and dazed every time. I like that in a man.

I want this so badly I can hardly stand it. Even though I'm not a gamer anymore. *grabby hands*

( Wizard of Earthsea, LeGuin )

Wow. Apparently babbling about cooking and domesticity really hits hot buttons on my flist. Kind of like my office supplies lust, I am like, "who knew?" I keep writing these things and then I end up feeling much less alone. General hugs at y'all.

The stunning eighth_horizon wrote The gayest gen story ever. It's glorious (SPN, NOT Sam/Dean).

TOMORROW. TOMORROW MY SHOW COMES BACK. I could capslock forever. All squee here is redundant. I won't actually get to see it till Friday, but still. I just rewatched the Dean-on-Dean scene in Dream a Little Dream of Me. Oh, Dean. *flails*

I just read the casting descriptions for SGU. I could die laughing. Those really could be fantastic characters in a fantastic show-- there's a shitload of potential there, and with SGA fans moving over I assume the fic will be good-- but obviously the actual show won't be any good. Plus, have you noticed all the emphasis on how beautiful everybody is? Just once, I would like to see a set of character descriptions of perfectly average-looking people.

Remember, writers: If the character is good enough, and the acting is good enough, people will eroticize him anyway. Just look at Rodney McKay!

First, a flailingly fangirly rec: Clear Daylight, by nym777 (SGA John/Rodney NC-17)

I have no words for how gorgeous that is. The narrative voice is stunning, lyrical and poetic and full of unexpected connections and startling insights and gems of thought processes that are so perfect for the characters. She hits emotional notes of incredible complexity and intensity with an amazing, subtle touch. Most of all, though, there is this incredible sense of watching the birth of something so very fragile- this incredibly intimate connection between two men who are both so very bad at intimacy or connection, are simply too broken to possibly nurture this thing between them. The understated beauty and simplicity and fragility and emotional richness of the understanding they reach is just breathtaking.

I want to write like that when I grow up.

(Side note: I find myself drawn to Jack/Daniel angst because I am stunned by how inevitable and unshakable their bond seems to me; by how they are so inexorably tied together that absolutely no level of horribleness can possibly destroy that. And on the flip side, I am incredibly drawn to John/Rodney romance because of how beautifully unlikely and fragile and astonishing any possible connection between them seems to be. This is another way in which I love the intersections and overlaps and contrasts between these two pairings. I am truly in love with them as a pair of mirrors and parallels and complements, in a way I would never be for one of them alone. Even if Jack/Daniel does sort of have my heart and my muse right now)

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( Cut for nobody cares )

( I love my sister so much )

A list of randomness, after my near-week of absence:

-Between lazy_daze's Wincest(SPN NC-17 Sam/Dean, obviously), princessofg's remix of paian's Come What May (SG1 Jack/Daniel), and thenyxie's homework verse (CWRPS Jensen/Jared, very good, very NC-17 D/s- she just posted a time-stamp with rope bondage, but what you REALLY want to read is part three, with the orgasm control. HOT LIKE BURNING), this has been a very good few days for porn.

-OMG SO MUCH OLYMPICS *dead of athletic prowess*

-I am SO BUSY all of a sudden. Between the real-estate stuff for family(involving SO MUCH TIME, even if nothing terribly difficult), and tutoring, which is now sitting at seven lessons a week (but will soon be nine, which is a 36 hour a week time commitment, more or less), plus my course (which I am slacking on), plus really wanting to get back in shape... gah.

-But, that means that I will break even this month. For the first month since MARCH, so my savings are looking pretty anemic. But I will be even for August and in the black for September and October. I do not know about November and December, though.

-And that, in turn, means that I will probably be able to go to a con this fall. So... Wincon or Bascon? winchestercon is kicking back up and I think I need to make a definite decision on that one way or the other if I'm to find a roommate, so... *wibbles frantically* I am going to Wincon!. Anybody who has space in their room, tell me? I will be asking those of you who I know will be there.

-I have not written all week. In 11 days, actually, now that I check. I lost momentum while C was here, and now I've... hit a wall. I have SO MANY bunnies and WIPpets and "I-wanna"s, but I am just... stuck. I psych myself out because I want to write well. I'm so fucking proud of Five First Kisses, but I just can't do stuff I'm proud of on command and I hate beating away at something that isn't good. But there is a deadline of September 4th for the spn_nostalgia, so maybe I will just force myself to buckle down on that project, and hell if it's pedestrian and formulaic? Gah.

So, have a happy strawberry-shortcake-and-fireworks day, y'all to whom it is relevant.

AND, READ THIS: Rodney McKay's Fourth of July, (McShep established relationship), because Rodney and Marines in a prank war is NEVER not awesome.