So I took the bar.
Aug. 2nd, 2013 10:00 pmI did it. It is done and I have done it. Dear God please let me not have to do that again.
I wouldn't wish the entire process on my worst enemy.
Studying for the bar not only makes you crazy, it also makes you really really boring to talk to or be around. I apologize.
Five thousand bar takers in New York City. Have never felt so much like a head of cattle in my life.
You'd think a convention center in Manhattan would be better at crowd control.
Five thousand people taking a six-hour long test with one very short, strictly enforced lunch break... is like an illustration of potty parity. I know a couple girls who spent their entire lunch breaks in line.
On much the same note, the cab stand basically looked like the Hunger Games.
On day two, when I finished the morning a bit early, I actually had a really good lunch. I walked up to the Empire State Building, and got cart hotdogs, and walked back down to the Hudson River Park and wandered around, and sat and ate watching the water. And then walked to the subway afterward and went past my favorite subway art. I know other people love their cities- really, I do, I know I'm not the only person in the world who loves her city- but sometimes it just blows me away that I'm lucky enough to live here.
Perhaps the oddest thing about the entire damn experience is how NICE people are to you. Everybody taking the bar is identified by a bright green wristband. You see anybody you recognize in a wristband? "Hey! Good luck! You're doing great!" Anybody recognizes you in a line? "Hey! Almost over, hang in there!" The proctor, walking down the row and getting us all to sign in? "You guys are doing so good, you're almost done!" The guy behind me in line at Subway? "Hey, you're taking the bar? My aunt took it a couple years ago. My aunt's kind of a moron, so if she can pass you definitely will. Good luck!" Random people on the street? "Hey, you're one of the bar people- chin up! You can do it!" A woman in a flight attendant uniform going to the airport shuttle stopped when we were in line to tell us her son was taking it in California right now, and then she went down the line pointing at each person individually yelling "You're going to pass! And you're doing to pass! And you're going to pass!" until the shuttle honked. Seriously, I had no idea this was such a cultural Thing. Probably never again in my life will so many random strangers be so nice to me on one day.
And yet, despite everybody being REALLY nice, and the fact that I had wine and cake waiting for me at home, I still don't want to do it again.
Nest up: major medical shit, giant fights about money, job I am in no way prepared for. This couple month stretch is shaping up extraordinarily unpleasant.
I wouldn't wish the entire process on my worst enemy.
Studying for the bar not only makes you crazy, it also makes you really really boring to talk to or be around. I apologize.
Five thousand bar takers in New York City. Have never felt so much like a head of cattle in my life.
You'd think a convention center in Manhattan would be better at crowd control.
Five thousand people taking a six-hour long test with one very short, strictly enforced lunch break... is like an illustration of potty parity. I know a couple girls who spent their entire lunch breaks in line.
On much the same note, the cab stand basically looked like the Hunger Games.
On day two, when I finished the morning a bit early, I actually had a really good lunch. I walked up to the Empire State Building, and got cart hotdogs, and walked back down to the Hudson River Park and wandered around, and sat and ate watching the water. And then walked to the subway afterward and went past my favorite subway art. I know other people love their cities- really, I do, I know I'm not the only person in the world who loves her city- but sometimes it just blows me away that I'm lucky enough to live here.
Perhaps the oddest thing about the entire damn experience is how NICE people are to you. Everybody taking the bar is identified by a bright green wristband. You see anybody you recognize in a wristband? "Hey! Good luck! You're doing great!" Anybody recognizes you in a line? "Hey! Almost over, hang in there!" The proctor, walking down the row and getting us all to sign in? "You guys are doing so good, you're almost done!" The guy behind me in line at Subway? "Hey, you're taking the bar? My aunt took it a couple years ago. My aunt's kind of a moron, so if she can pass you definitely will. Good luck!" Random people on the street? "Hey, you're one of the bar people- chin up! You can do it!" A woman in a flight attendant uniform going to the airport shuttle stopped when we were in line to tell us her son was taking it in California right now, and then she went down the line pointing at each person individually yelling "You're going to pass! And you're doing to pass! And you're going to pass!" until the shuttle honked. Seriously, I had no idea this was such a cultural Thing. Probably never again in my life will so many random strangers be so nice to me on one day.
And yet, despite everybody being REALLY nice, and the fact that I had wine and cake waiting for me at home, I still don't want to do it again.
Nest up: major medical shit, giant fights about money, job I am in no way prepared for. This couple month stretch is shaping up extraordinarily unpleasant.
So many cobwebs to clean out!
Jun. 22nd, 2013 06:41 pmSo. I went away due to law school, and I stayed away for too long. And then when I realized I needed to find an online community again, I found one that ended up being really psychologically not healthy for me. And so here I am, I guess, going… take me back? Please?
1. What can I be watching/obsessing about that has a good fandom right now?
2. Where is the action? Lots of things I liked are dead now and I’m just feeling a little bit… lost. Like, Sweet Charity is dead- where are the actions now? Are kinkmemes still a thing? I don’t even.
3. Is it possible to be all fannishly participatory on DW/LJ/AO3 alone, or am I now required to have a tumblr? Or is it something else entirely that I am too old and stupid now to know about?
4. Fandom specific
a. Oh my god did I have Strong Feelings about IM3. I'm weeks too late, but... it didn't leave much room for the Avengers fandom to breathe, did it?
b. My Little Ponies: This is a thing, right? I love the art on equestriadaily, but are there specific coms or people I should be following here for MLP?
c. Who are the big name people I should be reading for Game of Thrones, and/or where are the best recs?
d. Does anybody other than me care about The Borgias?
I feel so lost. It’s like when I first discovered fandom proper and have no idea how the hell to start, but now it’s sad because I used to. I will basically never have the time again that I did before but I am worse without a lot of those fannish habits so I need to figure out new ones I do have time for.
( Life )
1. What can I be watching/obsessing about that has a good fandom right now?
2. Where is the action? Lots of things I liked are dead now and I’m just feeling a little bit… lost. Like, Sweet Charity is dead- where are the actions now? Are kinkmemes still a thing? I don’t even.
3. Is it possible to be all fannishly participatory on DW/LJ/AO3 alone, or am I now required to have a tumblr? Or is it something else entirely that I am too old and stupid now to know about?
4. Fandom specific
a. Oh my god did I have Strong Feelings about IM3. I'm weeks too late, but... it didn't leave much room for the Avengers fandom to breathe, did it?
b. My Little Ponies: This is a thing, right? I love the art on equestriadaily, but are there specific coms or people I should be following here for MLP?
c. Who are the big name people I should be reading for Game of Thrones, and/or where are the best recs?
d. Does anybody other than me care about The Borgias?
I feel so lost. It’s like when I first discovered fandom proper and have no idea how the hell to start, but now it’s sad because I used to. I will basically never have the time again that I did before but I am worse without a lot of those fannish habits so I need to figure out new ones I do have time for.
( Life )
First, predictable insta-rec: Bohemian Rhapsody, by
cesperanza, in which Sherlock takes a case for Lady GaGa DaDa.
Second, the following are the two best images on the entire internet of the past week: Number One and Number Two.
I'm not sure what that combination says about me.
Third, still unemployed and psychologically fucked up about it. Sendjob offers best wishes, please?
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Second, the following are the two best images on the entire internet of the past week: Number One and Number Two.
I'm not sure what that combination says about me.
Third, still unemployed and psychologically fucked up about it. Send
Apocalypse No
May. 22nd, 2011 09:48 amBecause I would be remiss if I didn't pass it on, The Periodic Table of Storytelling. There should totally be some kind of random-element-generator prompt meme, Y/N?
Via
cofax7, the Guardian is doing some kind of SF thing.
Calvin & Hobbes futurefic gets me right where I live. Have Hobbes and Bacon part one and two.
( Aliens, zombies, and plauges, oh my )
( And the life update )
Via
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Calvin & Hobbes futurefic gets me right where I live. Have Hobbes and Bacon part one and two.
( Aliens, zombies, and plauges, oh my )
( And the life update )
Yuletide recs, year wrap-up, yadda
Jan. 7th, 2011 04:54 pmSo, Johnny Weir finally came out, eh? (And the internet gets so predictably sarcastic)
I adore
watersword forever for showing me this (and also every other clip of him singing on YouTube). Joseph Gordon-Levitt, people: my new fannish boyfriend. ADORABLE. OMG. CRUSH CRUSH CRUSH.
( Year round-up )
( Yuletide recs )
( Babbling about movies, just for my own keeping-track purposes )
I adore
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( Year round-up )
( Yuletide recs )
( Babbling about movies, just for my own keeping-track purposes )
The state of the me
Dec. 17th, 2010 10:21 pmChristmas! I got fantastic cards from
sid and
stultiloquentia and
jenrose, and
erda, who sent me a magnet, and
squirelawrence, whose card is Classy, and
hilarytamar, who I forgot to thank like a week ago.
I love this time of year! Thank you everybody!
School: The semester went astonishingly well. The exams... not so much. My procrastination is still a Problem (I'm doing it right now, in fact). It's all my own fault, and I will do better in Spring.
New York: ( Ooops, that got long )
Fail in the News: I love Sady Doyle.
Narnia: I don't have much to say about the movie (this is a lie: I have a MILLION things to say about the movie, but they're all very predictable and I said them all to
watersword in person). Sure, much of the movie Did It Wrong, and having Caspian aged up so dramatically changes things, but. But they got Reepicheep right, and that's all I cared about.
But I did manage to find two of my old fic recs for
watersword- the one about the magician's book, and the one that is so much more than just a threesome. (And if you ever feel the need for Problem Of Susan fic- and who doesn't?- I reccd four of those over at crack_van too)
Misc Fannish Other: ( Inception, mostly )
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I love this time of year! Thank you everybody!
School: The semester went astonishingly well. The exams... not so much. My procrastination is still a Problem (I'm doing it right now, in fact). It's all my own fault, and I will do better in Spring.
New York: ( Ooops, that got long )
Fail in the News: I love Sady Doyle.
Narnia: I don't have much to say about the movie (this is a lie: I have a MILLION things to say about the movie, but they're all very predictable and I said them all to
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But I did manage to find two of my old fic recs for
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Misc Fannish Other: ( Inception, mostly )
What a lovely evening
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Happy Halloween! If you haven't already seen it, go watch Zombie Jamboree. Also, fic where Adam is a zombie, and fic where Tommy is a vampire. They are both excellent, because
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I continue in my struggle to figure out how to stop procrastinating and actually get my work done. Signs are not good. But I absolutely love my life right now, so that's okay.
On a less happy note: Okay, now Glee is just FUCKING with me. So much potential for awesome, so much fail in execution! The only good thing to come out of that is the fact that I've now heard Anthony Head singing Sweet Transvestite. Dynamite. (I had known he played the role, but I knew that back before I had seen any Buffy, so I didn't care)
How do you avoid procrastination?
Oct. 24th, 2010 01:43 pmMy procrastination is becoming a Problem in my life. I remember I had techniques, back in undergrad, but I can't seem to remember what they are. There must be practical anti-procrastination advice on the internet, but if I spend hours reading it... I'm pretty sure that sort of thing is part of the problem.
The law school workload kept me away from NY Comic-Con this year, and I just realized I missed the signups for Muskrat Jamboree. And I barely knew about the
jd_ficathon until stuff had already posted. Dammit, I refuse to let law school take my hobbies. Partly because, you know, hobbies keep you sane, but partly because I've met so many of the people I value most this way, and I just can't lose that. So... I'll have to figure something out.
Edited for linkspam: I realize that I am in danger of just linking to everything Abigail Nussbaum ever writes, but I wanted to point out her really amazing articulation of just what is wrong with SGU and, now, her take on what exactly is the difference between Lord of the Rings and the Hobbit. It's a compelling argument that the difference is not, in fact, maturity or complexity. Very good read.
Plus, she tosses off the observation that Bilbo Baggins and Arthur Dent have more in common than is apparent at first glance, which made me giggle. Oh, so true!
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Edited for linkspam: I realize that I am in danger of just linking to everything Abigail Nussbaum ever writes, but I wanted to point out her really amazing articulation of just what is wrong with SGU and, now, her take on what exactly is the difference between Lord of the Rings and the Hobbit. It's a compelling argument that the difference is not, in fact, maturity or complexity. Very good read.
Plus, she tosses off the observation that Bilbo Baggins and Arthur Dent have more in common than is apparent at first glance, which made me giggle. Oh, so true!
( Life- irrelevant to all you )
Everybody in the world has already seen SG-1 The Movie. Fantastic pick-me-up.
Glam rec: The Good Times Are Killing Me, which is a month old but just surpassed Drive-By Devotion as my favorite Tommy characterization ever. I adore when he's all dudely and inarticulate and dirty-talking and has the gender politics of a caveman but is secretly pleased as punch at the idea of being the girl.
Everybody in the world has already seen SG-1 The Movie. Fantastic pick-me-up.
Glam rec: The Good Times Are Killing Me, which is a month old but just surpassed Drive-By Devotion as my favorite Tommy characterization ever. I adore when he's all dudely and inarticulate and dirty-talking and has the gender politics of a caveman but is secretly pleased as punch at the idea of being the girl.
The state of the me
Sep. 22nd, 2010 11:20 pmI am:
Wildly, stupidly, terrifyingly over-scheduled.
Enjoying the hell out of New York, school, and new people, and really everything except my lack of free time.
Endlessly indebted to
sothcweden for sending me links to this video and this video, displaying an uncanny sense of when I really needed a fannish pick-me-up. (Oh, I will miss LP so much. And how could I possibly love Adam and Tommy this much?)
Seriously bummed out by the fact that apparently I will never get laid again. (Invisible to law school boys. How do people in New York hook up, except in horrendously loud, crowded, terrible bars?)
Incredibly grateful for how easy it is to drift in and out of fandom. I can have no time to breathe but, after days or a weeks of being entirely absent (and getting defriended left and right), get a rec for a sharp, intelligent, gorgeously written first-time fic or a notice of an update to a truly glorious crack wip and feel like I've never left. I don't know what I'd be doing right now without that.
Wildly, stupidly, terrifyingly over-scheduled.
Enjoying the hell out of New York, school, and new people, and really everything except my lack of free time.
Endlessly indebted to
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Seriously bummed out by the fact that apparently I will never get laid again. (Invisible to law school boys. How do people in New York hook up, except in horrendously loud, crowded, terrible bars?)
Incredibly grateful for how easy it is to drift in and out of fandom. I can have no time to breathe but, after days or a weeks of being entirely absent (and getting defriended left and right), get a rec for a sharp, intelligent, gorgeously written first-time fic or a notice of an update to a truly glorious crack wip and feel like I've never left. I don't know what I'd be doing right now without that.
What's that they say about three things?
Sep. 10th, 2010 12:23 am1: Go Log Cabin Republicans!
2: Was delayed 15 minutes today because my subway entrance was roped off to film a scene of Gossip Girl. Got to see somebody putatively famous, with very shiny hair, walk up a set of stairs and check her phone in dismay about seven times in a row. (I assume this hardly counts as a spoiler?)
Possibly I live in New York.
3: I have missed swing dancing. Easy to forget just how fun it is.
2: Was delayed 15 minutes today because my subway entrance was roped off to film a scene of Gossip Girl. Got to see somebody putatively famous, with very shiny hair, walk up a set of stairs and check her phone in dismay about seven times in a row. (I assume this hardly counts as a spoiler?)
Possibly I live in New York.
3: I have missed swing dancing. Easy to forget just how fun it is.
Theater ping for NY peeps
Sep. 7th, 2010 06:07 pmPatrick Stewart is doing A Life in the Theatre. (Written by David Mamet the Pulitzer winner, which might mean something to theater fans, with TR Knight from Grey's Anatomy, which might mean something to fangirls). It looks like preview tickets might be available for the evening of the 22nd, 23rd, or 24th of September at $35 each, if we move *really* fast. Anyone who might be interested? Speak now or forever hold your peace. (ETA: the day I'm going to is all full)
(If I keep up at this rate, I am going to see a frightening amount of theater in New York. But really. Patrick Stewart.)
(If I keep up at this rate, I am going to see a frightening amount of theater in New York. But really. Patrick Stewart.)
I have a schedule, and a book list, and a reading assignment, and a locker (and, entertainingly, an assigned seat- ah, professors trying to learn 100 names. Good times), and a big check supposedly in the mail. *dies and is dead*
Fannishly: so where are all the VVC vid recs? I could hardly find any! Vids would be awesome right now.
Fannishly: so where are all the VVC vid recs? I could hardly find any! Vids would be awesome right now.
I miss you all so much!
Aug. 11th, 2010 01:36 pmI miss you all so much! And I really miss having a computer. This smartphone thing not cutting it.
But! I am moved in, and the apartment is almost habitable, even if all my clothing is still in a pile on the floor. Haven't really met anybody yet, but am getting a feel for the area. I keep having attacks of "OMG how is this my life?"
Oh, and? Adam just did "20th century boy" in concert. I KNEW it was only a matter of time before we heard him do a Velvet Goldmine song! You guys, he wants to be our toy. I could not possibly love that boy more.
But! I am moved in, and the apartment is almost habitable, even if all my clothing is still in a pile on the floor. Haven't really met anybody yet, but am getting a feel for the area. I keep having attacks of "OMG how is this my life?"
Oh, and? Adam just did "20th century boy" in concert. I KNEW it was only a matter of time before we heard him do a Velvet Goldmine song! You guys, he wants to be our toy. I could not possibly love that boy more.
Panic panic panic
Aug. 2nd, 2010 11:19 pmAs of tomorrow morning, I will have no internet save by phone. The idea of putting everything I own into the hands of some random guy in brown shorts is nervous-making at best.
Still kissing many frogs at Kradam Big Bang, but Simon's is cute cute cute cute cute, almost debilitatingly cute. And Ready Now is... *flails* It's, like, romantic and plotty and gripping and mesmerizing and the ending! The ending of this fic! Is like the ending of every romantic comedy I've ever rolled my eyes through times a million, except for being totally awesome.
Apparently I have a ticket to see Zachary Quinto in Angels in America in November. Because I am moving to NEW YORK and apparently this is what I do now- hook up with awesome fangirls to see Zachary fucking Quinto in a well respected off-Broadway play revival and then go party just because I can. How is this my life?
This almost makes up for the complete and total panic.
Still kissing many frogs at Kradam Big Bang, but Simon's is cute cute cute cute cute, almost debilitatingly cute. And Ready Now is... *flails* It's, like, romantic and plotty and gripping and mesmerizing and the ending! The ending of this fic! Is like the ending of every romantic comedy I've ever rolled my eyes through times a million, except for being totally awesome.
Apparently I have a ticket to see Zachary Quinto in Angels in America in November. Because I am moving to NEW YORK and apparently this is what I do now- hook up with awesome fangirls to see Zachary fucking Quinto in a well respected off-Broadway play revival and then go party just because I can. How is this my life?
This almost makes up for the complete and total panic.