Gah

[dragojustine]

Just blew a job interview as badly as I've ever blown anything. Was utterly embarrassed and shamed. Went home and cried a lot. Then took a nap. Then called my mother and cried a lot about how I am going to be unemployed and broke for the rest of my life, how this much money stress just... weighs me down, all the time, makes it hard to even function in some ways, how I'm watching all my dreams and goals just slip away, how I'll never get back to school with a three-year gap on my resume and no recommendations...

My life is just going nowhere, and every once in awhile it comes CRASHING down.

I'm so fucked up I haven't watched SPN or SGA. How's that, eh? Anyway. I've made the executive decision to do the damn Thanksgiving road trip, because if I give up something I want so bad because of the money trouble right now, I might just fall apart completely. So! And I think I will sit in downtown Chicago and look out over the water and feel the wind. I think... that will help a lot. Not as much as salt water, but a lot.

Comments

[sid]

Life. Who needs it? {hugs}

[desertport]

*sends you hugs galore*

There is life after the quarter-life crisis, I swear. Hang in there!

[jd-junkie.livejournal.com]

Sends positive vibes and hugs.

[princessofg.livejournal.com]

hard. yes.

hang in there. something will come along with your name on it eventually. i have a close friend who temped for a year in NYC before finding the perfect job just this past summer.

i myself worked as a secretary for nine months for a pittance during the that cataclysmic recession 25 years ago that hit just as i got out of college.... then i did find a job in my field and all was well.

i have a friend who got out of college with a degree in a very specialized field just as the huge recession hit that field. he couldn't get a job and ended up joining the military. but then, after he got out, he went to grad school and now is extremely successful and rich.

you will find your spot. hang in there.

[kaballa.livejournal.com]

Commiserations - I once had an interview where I felt like I'd aced it, I was just interview perfection personified & i wanted the job so badly....then the interviewer asked me if I had eye problems, and I realised that I had done the whole interview wearing my (mirrored) sunglasses.
'Strong, positive eye-contact with the interviewer throughout' my arse :-(

If you can analyse what went wrong with the interview you can practice and be ready for the next one - and you *will* do well. I was in your shoes not long ago & really down about it but I practiced interviews, cribbed notes everywhere on interview technique, body language etc etc. I also started to accept every interview possible, figuring that if I got offered something I didn't want I could turn it down but that every opportunity was at minimum a chance to learn something. Nowadays I feel like a fraud at interviews but I also got offered 4 out of the last 5 jobs I interviewed for.

And go on your trip, because it will make you happy, and that will help you achieve your aims, and being sad will not.

[sinnerforhire.livejournal.com]

Oh, honey... *hugs*

*more hugs*

[janedavitt.livejournal.com]

::hugshugs:: I'm sorry that things aren't going well right now; I hope they turn around very, very soon. Like, right now.

[als-wonderland.livejournal.com]

*hugs you*