Oh, my lingering family issues...
Oct. 24th, 2007 11:30 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dragojustineSo the official answer is no, C will not be visiting me over Thanksgiving. Mom spun this whole thing about how she couldn't stand to lose both of her kids on the same Thanksgiving, but I'll be home for Christmas and the real reason is that she's punishing me for living with Dustin. Because I'm going to be some sort of horrible bad influence on my pristine sister or she's just generally upset or god knows but I'm pissed because dammit, I wanted to see C and I wanted to see her without mom and dad around all the time and I wanted someone to visit me here. And I've lived with Dustin for over a year now and even though mom and dad have been better about it than I honestly would have predicted (in fact it's been really really good between us since I moved out, which makes me think I should have moved out about a year earlier, because one fewer years of arguing about inanities like phone calls after 10pm and church attendance would have helped everybody's blood pressure), and even though I know they have every right to feel uncomfortable about it and I can't change that it just pisses me off that they're finding stupid petty little ways to try to punish me for it.
*gasps for breath*
And I just... really really really wanted to see her for Thanksgiving and I wanted to spend Thanksgiving here, not up in Seattle, because I just... want this to feel like home too and I just want these things to not be an issue and I just... need to have a good cry now.
Plus, Dustin's afraid he's going to be fired and even though there are plenty of jobs here for him, that combined with my own apparent inability to get work combined with the realization of how incredibly unstable and un-long-term-suited this whole damn thing we have going is and what do I want with my life really and why am I stuck in these temporary situations that don't even make me happy in the short term and ANGST.
Well, that felt good. I guess while I'm here I should report on my required reading.
Are You Dumb Enough to be Rich? G William Barnett II
So, mom and dad picked this as my first required reading for the thing, which amuses me because it's completely a hype-y self-help book. I have a hard time taking those seriously, but dad has always been completely all over the self-help genre- he's one of those people who not only read the 7 Habits but underlined things and took little notes, you know? And I know it sort of gave him the push to believe in this whole thing and the guy has become a mentor of his, so it's not like I mind reading it, but the prose is a bit sensational and over-inflated and the first several chapters are pretty much "the mindset of being rich" and "the importance of writing down your dreams" so it's a bit funny.
Mostly funny because this is exactly the sort of book my dad would pick as a very first required reading book, whereas the very first thing I would pick would probably be something with a much broader and more informative technical, legal, and financial background, cause that's what you need to actually feel helpful. Ah well.
He does say some good things. The chapters on the secondary mortgage market, tax liens, and real estate in an IRA especially pique my interest. There are many scripts in here that have the ring of being long-perfected, and his basic no-money-buy, rehab, and lease-puchase-flip obviously works very very well for him, even if that narrow of a formula does make the book seem more like one guy's memoir than a guide to an industry. And he finishes with this heartfelt plea to give back to the community, and that makes me smile because you know that is exactly the kind of guy my dad would pick as a mentor. And that has surprised me a little about this whole endeavor, the fact that you have all these people who are so obsessed with investing and financial freedom and asset protection and creating generational wealth... but they seem more conscious of philanthropy than any group I know of. Maybe it's the contrast with the anti-tax stands (which I find distasteful) and this? I don't know, but it's very dad and that makes me smile.
ETA: So C and dad are visiting on the 8th for several days, and they have offered to buy my ticket home for Thanksgiving. They always do this, pull my anger out from under me with awkward peace offerings that don't fix the underlying thing but make it impossible to be pissy and just leave you... sad. But it's sweet, it really is. And I have a job interview for tomorrow, too.
*gasps for breath*
And I just... really really really wanted to see her for Thanksgiving and I wanted to spend Thanksgiving here, not up in Seattle, because I just... want this to feel like home too and I just want these things to not be an issue and I just... need to have a good cry now.
Plus, Dustin's afraid he's going to be fired and even though there are plenty of jobs here for him, that combined with my own apparent inability to get work combined with the realization of how incredibly unstable and un-long-term-suited this whole damn thing we have going is and what do I want with my life really and why am I stuck in these temporary situations that don't even make me happy in the short term and ANGST.
Well, that felt good. I guess while I'm here I should report on my required reading.
Are You Dumb Enough to be Rich? G William Barnett II
So, mom and dad picked this as my first required reading for the thing, which amuses me because it's completely a hype-y self-help book. I have a hard time taking those seriously, but dad has always been completely all over the self-help genre- he's one of those people who not only read the 7 Habits but underlined things and took little notes, you know? And I know it sort of gave him the push to believe in this whole thing and the guy has become a mentor of his, so it's not like I mind reading it, but the prose is a bit sensational and over-inflated and the first several chapters are pretty much "the mindset of being rich" and "the importance of writing down your dreams" so it's a bit funny.
Mostly funny because this is exactly the sort of book my dad would pick as a very first required reading book, whereas the very first thing I would pick would probably be something with a much broader and more informative technical, legal, and financial background, cause that's what you need to actually feel helpful. Ah well.
He does say some good things. The chapters on the secondary mortgage market, tax liens, and real estate in an IRA especially pique my interest. There are many scripts in here that have the ring of being long-perfected, and his basic no-money-buy, rehab, and lease-puchase-flip obviously works very very well for him, even if that narrow of a formula does make the book seem more like one guy's memoir than a guide to an industry. And he finishes with this heartfelt plea to give back to the community, and that makes me smile because you know that is exactly the kind of guy my dad would pick as a mentor. And that has surprised me a little about this whole endeavor, the fact that you have all these people who are so obsessed with investing and financial freedom and asset protection and creating generational wealth... but they seem more conscious of philanthropy than any group I know of. Maybe it's the contrast with the anti-tax stands (which I find distasteful) and this? I don't know, but it's very dad and that makes me smile.
ETA: So C and dad are visiting on the 8th for several days, and they have offered to buy my ticket home for Thanksgiving. They always do this, pull my anger out from under me with awkward peace offerings that don't fix the underlying thing but make it impossible to be pissy and just leave you... sad. But it's sweet, it really is. And I have a job interview for tomorrow, too.
